The Power of Positive Fruitcake


On my knees digging around for 50ml minis of Smirnoff vodka while an anxious customer waits for them behind me, just slightly too close for comfort, I realize how fortunate I am. And I also realize how I’ve reached a point of determination like never before.

Time is also flying like never before. Like the way our parents said time would fly when we were young and days lasted forever.

But the thoughts of fortune that popped into my head while I was on my knees in my old brown corduroy pants had nothing to do with my weekly paycheck or my great coworkers and boss. Because yes, I know, that’s more than many people have. It has nothing to do with my good health or incredible friends or my bond with my husband or the gift of my daughter. It’s something else.

I have a passion. For writing. For telling stories. The funny, the sad, and the in between. I never feel more alert and content than when I’m stringing words together. Hokey, right? But true. It wakes me up on my most dragging days. I look forward to it like a promising date. Like a date you think could have potential. Like the kind of date when you can’t wait to see what he kisses like.

As I dug around for the 50ml mini bottles of vodka for this too close for comfort guy, with his cigarette stink coming off him, my pissed off inner work ethic kept yelling at me “Get up off the f’ing floor!”

So I just write. I give into “the compulsion to scribble” as my friend Deb called it once. She also told me to keep going. To write without fear. Just keep going. And knowing that I have the outlet of my keyboard to look forward to keeps me plowing through the passing hours. And that’s where the fortunate part comes in.

I consider myself so lucky to have this urge to write. I can’t imagine not having a passion for something. Anything. It doesn’t have to be tangible. It doesn’t have to produce a finished something. It can just be the act of doing it. Dancing. Acting. Reading. Knitting. Drawing. Teaching. Comforting. Cooking. Gardening.

I used to do some writing for my job. I wrote wine descriptions. And I think I was pretty good at it. I used fun descriptors that customers enjoyed, laymen and snobs alike. I had one wine I used to sell by describing it as the Willy Wonka wine because it reminded me of the Everlasting Gobstopper. Like the gum that Violet chewed until she turned into the blueberry pie, this wine had layers of flavor as you drank it. “Willy Wonka Wine” said it all and I found it very effective.

One day I wrote the phrase “Christmas fruitcake” to describe a wine (actually the words of the winemaker) and the wine world screeched to a halt. Or at least mine did. Flavors of nuts, raisins, toffee, dried fruits, and spices placed under an umbrella term that everyone understood turned out be an insult to the powers that be. So I was told I could no longer write about something I love. Wine.

I’m not going to lie. I cried. And I got really angry. And hurt. And angry again. Then slowly the mention of the word “fruitcake’ simply became a joke. Almost like how the mere mention of the names Dan Quayle or Sarah Palin became the joke.

(Quick but important side note…corporate politics and strange bedfellows is really what caused me to lose the writing duties. Not my ability. Not my knowledge. Not even the mention of Christmas fruitcake)

So again, I turned lemons into lemonade. Fermented grapes into wine. Day old bread into bread pudding. I was more driven than ever to write since now it was limited only to my off hours. So thank you to the jackass who took that away from me. It’s cool. No, seriously it is. You’ve given me a running joke for the rest of my days. And who doesn’t like a joke? You’ve reminded me of my childhood dream to write ever since I wrote a descriptive essay about a pencil that blew Mrs. Kelly’s mind in second grade. I can still remember how proud my mother was after that parent/teacher conference. She had a copy of that essay in her hand and smiled down at me. And like my friend Deb, she told me to keep writing.

My boss (not the aforementioned jackass) came into work two days after Christmas and handed me a solid square of tin foil. Inside was a piece of fruitcake. The joke is there. And the support is too. That piece of fruitcake practically screams “Don’t let ’em get you down!”

From the too close stinky guy waiting for his vodka to the corporate bullshit, don’t let them take your passion people. If you are fortunate enough to have one. Keep going. Without fear.






6 thoughts on “The Power of Positive Fruitcake

  1. I was thinking that if you soaked the aforementioned fruitcake in the aforementioned vodka, you could very possibly have a trendy new tiramisu-like holiday dessert treat…just puts the fun in dysfunction. Tuitty Fruitty Kicks Your Booty cakes. 😉


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